What should i do?

When the memories in the past are pulling me back.
It depends.
The nice memories, of course i never won't to forget it.
But the bad memories, i always try to forget it.
But...
Why its so hard?
The steps are just : Forget it or don't remember it, right?
But why?
"Nice memories become bad memories"
Hmm.. if you know what i mean.
I mean like the good memories are good in the past, bad for now, and unforgettable on future.
Because...
Something happened, something so annoying, something like trouble came.
Make the situation changed like hell.
For the first time, i try to hold it, to be a good person outside, but a weak person inside.
Try to hold what i want to say for a reason.
Try to be a patient person ever.
But, what?
Useless!!
All of my effort is nothing.
To be honest, i tired showed my fake smile, showed that i'm care, showed that everything okay, its so tired.
Inside i feel so tired.
So, i decided for not showed the fake smile. Yes the flat face.
Well i think that's the best choice ever.
But in the future when the problems are clear.
I heard the sounds so annoying told me that i always showed flat face.
So what?
I should showed my fake smile?
And what i get?
You maybe can act as if there's no me.Maybe..
But i was too late to realize that the sounds so annoying.
When the situation like the begining
I felt so happy.
But you know, something happened (again).
The reason is i don't know right about the reason.
Still.. Until now
But who cares?
"Come only when you need it"
Yes, that make i sure won't hold it.
*Long story*
The situation suddenly came (again )back to begining
But we were not as close as previsouly.
This problems makes confused.
Well, life must go on,dude.
If you choose to stay in the situation that so confused. You will left behind with your problems.
Just follow where the wind carries the leaves are falling.
So, what should i do?




Regards,


-Rasthiti-